I recognize that as I perform this rescue mission for my small part(s) that are afraid of being BIG there is some work here for me to do as I wait for them to warm up to the idea of being held.
They will come home when they are ready, I do not have to force this. What I do have to do is honor the commitment I am making to them – I will not abandon you – by showing up BIG in my relationships. This is what will create the feeling of safety for these parts so I can reconnect with them and step closer to ultimate goal of connection, wholeness, and love.
When I play small in my relationships I am abandoning this small part(s). I am energetically telling this part(s) of myself that she is not worthy of my love, that the other person is more worthy.
If at any point I am having to abandon a part of myself to experience love with another person I am not actually experiencing love.
Love comes from a connected whole place, never a place of disconnection. I do not throw the word never around lightly. This is my truth.
There are specific places right now in relationships where I can practice being BIG and I committed to this work.
My Mother-in-law is in town and I have been playing small. I will do my repair work with myself and stand in my truth in this relationship.
I also need to do some repair work with my husband. He and I have experienced disconnection as a result of both of us playing small around his mom. It does not feel good when he and I are not on the same team. I look forward to truth speaking with him to move towards realignment in our relationship.
There is a place where I have felt I need to do some repair work with soul family by owning a misstep I made with them. I look forward to practicing connection with them in this way.
Finally I recognize there are bigger ways for me to practice being BIG as well. These opportunities are on the horizon. It will not be easy and I am scared.
I know I can do hard things because I am not small AND I honor and hold the part(s) of me that are small in love as I stand in this truth.
This is how I create safety. This is my path forward towards love, connection, and wholeness.
With my hand at my heart I will walk my path forward in gratitude, courage, and love.